I know where I wanna go,
but the path is still hazy.
I’m taking steps
blindfolded.
I take these steps amidst a feeling of trust
that what I’m doing is right.
All the overwhelming feelings of doubt
of stress
of frustration
serve as daily doses of motivation.
I need balance
& I’ve found it in the
thinnest crevices.
To be one.
Intertwined with unconditional
support will always be the driving force in me.
I keep searching,
searching for something I’m not sure I want to find again.
I’m not sure why I want to find it or where to even start
because I’ve hidden it from myself hoping to never think about it again.
But now I’m finding that there is a part of me that does.
Each time, I wind up back where I started
and I know I’m looking in all the wrong places.
In that moment
I didn’t think twice & I never looked back
because I knew this would happen
&& now the thoughts come flooding in.
why now.
